On being in love with oneself.

Hello blog, you darling. It's been a while

So it's pretty late and my head effing hurts and I'm kind of sleep deprived and I've had one of those long-but-short days that seem kind of timeless because it's summer and doesn't get dark. Really I probably shouldn't be writing this, headache-y, sleep deprived blogs are never a wise move, but I just had some musings.

There's this girl I follower on tumblr who's super cute and really lovely and also just seems like a great person. She's got really good opinions on everything, but that's all beside the point. She's got this great attitude, where she's kind of in love with herself but in a good way. She calls herself cute, because she is and she knows it and it's actually so great. So I've been thinking, maybe I should just be in love with myself. I'm not all that attractive or anything, but I think she kind of tells herself that she is and I'd like to try that. I don't like finding myself unattractive, but it seems that some girls feel obliged to. It's like we're expected to complain about our  appearance and not like it and I feel like some girls only do it because they feel like they should. Personally, I do it because I genuinely don't like how I look but it annoys me that that is so okay. Girls -and boys too, of course, but I think the attitude is more prevalent in girls- complain about how they look and everyone just accepts it as normal and doesn't really say much about it. I just don't think that's okay.

I suppose the whole not-liking-how-I-look-thing is sort of a social norm and when people call themselves attractive it's deemed as vain and self-centred and sometimes it probably is, but other times it's just being able to appreciate yourself and that's honestly fucking fantastic. I like to put effort into how I look, my hair and makeup and clothes and if I'm having a good day, I like to make silly/cute faces in the mirror at myself, so yeah, I think I've got the capacity to be a little in love with myself. I don't want to be a part of this barrage of people lamenting their unattractiveness, I want to treat myself like a little bit of a princess.

In other news, I'm thinking of altering this blog a little bit, but there'll be more word on that later.

Forever yours, darlings,
Cíara
xox