Saturday, October 8, 2011

SO MUCH EMOTION

Right, I know I just blogged, but all my thoughts on Steve Jobs, and my ecstaticness from the great day I had with great people and now all this emotion from two vlogs about Lauren and Matt's wedding (two vlogger/wrockers, Lauren is one of my favourite people ever), and John Green and his dedication to signing all pre-ordered copies of The Fault in Our Stars, which got me going with all this love for Nerdfighteria, and some wrock news, which got me going with a lot of love for the Harry Potter nerd community, I am so emotional, ahhhh!!SO MUCH NERD EMOTION!!!!

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Steve Jobs.

I'm just home from the loveliest of nights, with the greatest of people, and I'll get to that in a second. First though, something that I only just realised was important to me.

I was just watching today's vlogbrothers video, and of course, Steve Jobs was mentioned and that's what me realise what I've realised. You already know, I'm sure, that Steve Jobs died of pancreatic cancer earlier this week, and when I heard I kind of went, "Oh, really? That's sad" and then moved on. And then someone made a joke about his death today, and I talked about him with Siobhan and Hank Green talked about him in a video, and I knew had to blog.

 When I heard he died, I thought of Steve Jobs, that guy who started Apple, like I'm sure most people did, and that's why it didn't mean much to me. But it had somehow slipped my mind that Steve Jobs worked in Pixar, and then it didn't become the death of some famous person, it became the death of a creator, an inspiration, a real person. Steve Jobs isn't just another name; he's a person. He's somewhere behind all the movies that have made me laugh, cry, smile, and feel happy to be alive. I love Disney, but much, much more than that, I love Pixar. I love the movies, I love the work that goes into them, I love the fact that the movies I loved as a kid still delight me, and also have more meaning to them than they did before. Pixar movies bring out a sentimentality in me, but it's a sentimentality that makes me feel...optimistic.

Honestly, I felt guilty, almost, for not immediately thinking of Pixar when I heard of his death, but needless to say, I'm thinking of it now. I don't know what Steve Jobs was like as a person, but what he's created, and what he's contributed to, just make an amazing person. Pixar is the type of place that is full of the type of people that I aspire to be, creative and hard working and determined, and doing something they love and making art. My sympathies go to Steve's family, but also to his co-workers, both in Pixar and Apple. They have lost an undoubtedly brilliant mind, and an inspiration. It's a shame, that only his death brought me to realise how much a hero Steve Jobs truly is, because I should have realised long ago that this man should have been one of my heroes.

Stuff about people who've died is usually written to make them seem great, and flawless, and that bothers me, which is why I'm sketchy about this. I'm not one to glorify every famous person who dies, so I never comment on them, because I've nothing to say. This one was every bit necessary, and every bit from my heart.

As mentioned, I'm not long home. I went to see the Lion King with all my favourite people (expect Beth -.-), and it was a great evening, and something I think we should do more often! I'm feeling pretty happy just to be alive right now, and I think I'll watch Monsters Inc.

Love, 
Cíara.